It’s been a while since I have posted something personal. I have been going back and forth whether to share anything at all because well, why would I post something like this on my blog where potential clients may read this, judge this, and may be turned away from my business. But I just have to trust in myself and hope that my customers would love my work and respect who I am as a human being. So I’m going to keep writing and if there’s any reason that I offend you or this is not your cup of tea, then I apologize for that.
So much has happened that I don’t even know where to begin. This last year has been one of the most challenging years of my life. It’s crazy because I would have never thought that I would be sitting here feeling like this. Fighting. Battling with my negative thoughts, decisions about my family, my career, juggling physical challenges, my dad battling cancer and more changes that affects everything. I am going through so much that my thoughts would only focus on the very worse outcome. I struggled with allowing this challenge to come to me, face to face and I was resisting it with all my might. I didn’t want to fight because I was afraid to fail. Therefore I believed that I would. However, I reached out to anything that can possibly give me respite and hope. In these last 8 months I have learned to be forgiving towards myself and to everyone around me especially those that hurt me. In all of this, I figured out a way to take care of myself. In all honesty I feel like I’ve been trying to figure out a way to care for myself for quite some time. But in the last year, “self-care” has brought a different meaning and has brought me to see what it really means for me.
I have said this before- nothing is permanent and things are always changing. I am fighting to get through this, and I am realizing that as I get through one challenge, another will come so I need to learn how to keep myself grounded, to love who I am because I am worth it and to allow myself to make mistakes because things cannot always be perfect. The things that I have learned recently is to keep humor alive, to continue living my life at it’s present and in it’s entirety. I am learning not to focus so much on the chaos, but to STOP and allow myself to have a good time while working really hard on the tough parts of my life. I can’t remember how many times I had heard “thing’s will be ok,” in this last year, and as hard as it is to hear those words because my feelings did not coincide with it at the time, I can only hope and work hard so that it will be.
So for now, I will keep fighting, while I celebrate the good stuff in my life.
On another note, here’s a sneak peek of my upcoming website, designed by an uber talented designer and friend: Eric Yra from 7t8 Design. I am super excited and I hope you love it just as much as I do. =)
You can check it out for yourself here. Thank you for visiting!